BEING GAY: SOME THINGS THAT I HAVE LEARNED!
SOME THINGS THAT I HAVE LEARNED
One thing that I have learned is: although Gay people are born gay; when gays have gone through the process of: first denial, then self-loathing and other steps, and finally acceptances; then Gay people are ready to move on to healthy relationships. Another thing that I have learned is: that for relationships to work; each person in that relationship, must learn to deal with all the rejection from family, friends, the clergy, members of their church, and other so called Christians or any religious people and all other haters of gay people. Along with this, there are the normal problems of a relationship, which for a Gay person, are similar to a heterosexual relationship, yet are different also, and for most gays, even more difficult than it is for straight people to handle, especially without expert help.
The difficulty for us gays to have relationships in the first place, is what I am getting at. Because it is so hard to have a gay relationship, this is why so many gay people give up and just go to bars to try and â€œHook-Upâ€ (have anonymous sex). But even these gay people still dream of having a wonderful relationship some day. Now those who diligently strive for a long lasting relationship; if they find one, they are much more appreciative and thankful, than those whose relationship was not so hard or difficult to find or achieve. This is why I have known gay couples who have been together for 27 years, 30 years, 36 years, 55 years, 63 years or even longer. The point being, that Gay relationships can last a really long time or even for a lifetime if the two partners work at it and they love one another and are dedicated to one another.
Some gay people used to go from one relationship to another; but since the AIDS epidemic and Hepatitis C, many couples are staying together longer, and many singles are now seeking out a Gay relationship much more diligently than before. These new Gay relationships stay together longer as well. However, a relationship lasting longer than 6 months is still considered a long term relationship; one lasting a year, marriage is expected, and 4 years, a full term relationship. If you pass 7 years, then your relationship is considered to be extremely long term, and finally if you reach and pass ten years then your relationships considered a life long relationship. Many relationships between Gay couples unfortunately only last for a few short months and then they break up or one partner begins to sleep around.
ANOTHER FEW THINGS I HAVE LEARNED
On January 19TH 2012, homophobic bishop Bobby W., excommunicated me from the Mormon Church. Just as I was making plans to go back to church this happens and now I have not gone back. I attend church at the Church of Christ in Porum, Oklahoma, with Cody and his family. Georgeâ€™s grandpa is the minister in that particular congregation, which consists of George Allen Circle, his mom Sharon, his step-dad Jaun, his sister Juliana, his brother Roy, his grandpa the minister, me of course and 22 other people. We sing several songs, we have Holy Communion; except for me of course because I am not allowed, do to the fact that I am not a member; they take collection, and then Grandpa gives the sermon, we then have closing prayer.
Cody and I are very happy together over these past 9 months and I have officially moved in with his family who completely accept me, at least a lot more than the Mormon Church does. Cody and I share the same bedroom and bed and we have our desk in the back room. Cody and I are good companions for each other and he is completely devoted to me. We bring comfort and joy to each other and we share our lives together. He gives me a sense of purpose and helps me to not be lonely. I need him in my life and he needs me and we are there for each other. Cody is my partner and significant other, and I do love him and I do love his whole family.
ONE LAST THING
I miss the Mormon Church, so I went to the LDS church on Sunday just 2 days ago on September 23rd 2012. I do not believe that I should have been excommunicated. I still have a testimony of the church, the prophets and apostles and seventy; as well as the Book of Mormon: Another Testament of Christ, The Doctrine and Covenants and the Pearl of Great Price. The Church is true. I do wonder though, why President Benson did not get more revelation about gays than he did (they fear change).
ABOUT MY BLOGS THAT ARE ON THE NET
I challenge anyone to prove to me that I â€œmisrepresentedâ€ any general authority in MY BLOG. I had before me several talks by Gordon B. Hinckley, Jeffery R. Holland, James E. Faust, 2 by Dallin H. Oaks, and 2 by Boyd K. Packer. I read them over and over again, and I marked them with underlines and then I included all the underlined statements in this BLOG and none of them were taken out of context. I also quoted all the scriptures from some of the talks that were listed and which were supposed to back up the points the brethren were trying to make. I did not think that all those scriptures related to homosexuality, but apparently the brethren did. Since the bishop supports all that the brethren say, I wrote that he was saying these things also that the brethren were saying and quoting, by way of agreement.
But I was mistaken about that; the bishop does not agree with all these talks by the brethren or the supporting scripture they used, or else he would not have excommunicated me himself. I am excommunicated right now, primarily due to a homophobic bishop. Because I was excommunicated before when I wanted to be, and it was justified; now I may not ever be baptized again in the Mormon Church. It is very difficult to be rebaptized, let alone be rebaptized a second time. Brother Bailey my old friend in California who was my old Home Teaching Companion, was rebaptized twice, but I was told that it was very rare. Also if I would have received my blessings back, the bishop would not have been able to excommunicate me himself; he would have to get his superior, the Stake President, to do it (and I do not believe he would have excommunicated me the way the bishop did).
I WAS EXCOMMUNICATED BECAUSE OF MY BLOG!
The biggest problem the bishop has with this BLOG is that he thinks that I am going against Boyd K. Packer; but it is other general authorities that are disagreeing with him too. In my understanding of things, if several different people are saying different things, or complete opposite positions about the same subject, then some one is wrong, or they are all wrong together. There is only one truth out there and I for one do not believe we have all the truth about same-sex-attraction yet. The Articles of Faith tell us that we believe that many plain and precious truths will yet be revealed to us. I simply sided with the majority of those general authorities, who spoke on the subject of homosexuality and it is not my fault the bishop disagrees with those talks.
The Catholics have the same problem with the Bible; they believe in the â€œdivinity of the Bible,â€ which means that they think it is perfect and infallible. Bishop W., like many other Mormons, believe that our general authorities are also perfect and infallible. This is not true, because Joseph Smith said of himself, that he was only a man, and that he was not perfect. One of my favorite general authorities who was a seventy, even Paul H. Dunn who was nicknamed the â€œgreat orator,â€ was later released and all his books and tapes were no longer sold at LDS Bookstores and his works were censored by the Church, because he embellished his stories. In other words, he lied to the youth of the Church, which was his main group that he spoke to.
If a Seventy can lie to us, then why canâ€™t an Apostle simply be mistaken about a certain subject, or even possibly be prejudice. Well, I have already been punished for saying these things and I do not know how I am supposed to see it any other way. I have heard, that when the Bible says that a Priest must be 30 years old to make sacrifice in the Temple; and in another spot says that he must be 3 years old to make sacrifice in the Temple; the Catholics say, both are right, and if you do not understand, they say â€œjust have faith my sonâ€. I know that one of these Old Testament verses is wrong. I choose to believe that the correct age is 30, because that is the age that Jesus Christ chose in the New Testament to start his own Mortal Ministry. This is why the Articles of Faith say that â€œwe believe in the Bible as far as it is translated correctlyâ€. Mormons say that 2% of the Bible has mistakes in it; and it is not a perfect book, or set of books, like the Book of Mormon is.
A FINAL NOTE FROM MY EXPERIENCE AND SUMMATION
The time has come for me to stop obsessing about the Church and just be happy with the life that I have right now. Besides, it would take someone like Joseph Smith to get all the correct information that we need from God. I just know that I am not evil minded and that I love God and our Christ, and that I did not deserve to be just excommunicated the way that it was done. But since I am not a member of the Church any longer, I think that I will continue to have an ear ring in each ear, and nail polish on my fingers and toes. I also wear pants and t-shirts that are really womenâ€™s clothes, because they donâ€™t have menâ€™s clothes in pink. I will continue to be in love with George Allen Circle or Cody as he likes to be called.
I am pretty happy these days living with my husband and his; and now, my new family. In fact, the only thing that really bothers me now, is the fact that this house is way to hot for me.
I really believe that I would have been much happier in my lifetime if I were born to a family that accepted homosexuality a lot more. If I could have had boyfriends when I was young, like my present husband has had, and if I had been able to accept my own sexuality then I do not believe that I would have developed so many mental illnesses. My childhood sucked anyway, for many other reasons as well.
I am now glad that I am gay, and do not want to change myself anymore, like I used to. I want to get married legally to my husband and spend many years with him. Cody Pooh is my baby and I love him very much. I cannot be happy any other way than being gay. I am definitely not your average Joe; no, the gay life is the only life for me, from now on and for the rest of my life. Gay life is pretty cool when you are accepting of yourself and you are not being persecuted by your peers, family, clergy, neighbors, or just strangers. Then it is really fun to be gay.
I really like myself now, and because I have got to know so many other gays; intimately and otherwise; I have grown to see that there is not really anything wrong with me, I just love young men and not young women. I do not need to be fixed; I am not broken or maladjusted in any way. I feel much better about myself, and I have a much better support system than I did when I was growing up in California; which is really weird when you stop and consider that this is Oklahoma, home of the red man and redneck. I am not recommending the gay lifestyle to anyone; I am just saying that it is right for me and for anyone else who knows that they were born to be only this way. For if you are born this way there is really no problem as long as you can accept yourself the way that you are and do not give a damn what all other people think of you.
Letâ€™s put an end to this debate over gay and straight. Gay marriage should be legal everywhere so that gay people can love each other and be happy; after all, what is wrong with more love in this world anyway. I believe that straight people need to stop interfering with honest, happy gay couples that are not hurting anyone. I believe that the reason that straight people do not want gays to marry, is not just because they think that it is wrong, but it is because they do not want us gays to have the one thousand and forty-nine rights and privileges under the law that they have and enjoy, who are already married legally and that is just the federal laws that would benefit all gays in the United States. Most straight people are not even aware that they have this many (1,049) federal laws for married couples, let alone what they are or what they are entitled to under State laws; they just no way in hell want gay people to have them what ever they are, that is for damn sure.
Like I have said in my first Manifesto; the civil rights of a minority cannot be decided by a plebiscite; for if you allow this to happen, we will all be going backwards and not forward in the arena of civil rights for all minorities. This is why we have a Constitution of These United States and elected officials to govern us and protect minorities and individuals from the more â€œimmoralâ€ majority. Especially when a minority has many fellow citizens that hate them and/or are prejudiced against them like our recent past has shown against Indians, Blacks, Hispanics, Asians, Women, Children, certain religions, Gays, Lesbians, Transgender and inter-sexed people.
Have I mentioned lately that I am completely happy with my life here with my FiancÃ© and his whole family. My boyfriendâ€™s dad defends me all of the time and his mother is always kind and supportive of me and his little sister and brother just love me to death, so to speak. I do like living in a house. My boyfriend and I have our own dog, Ariel, and my boyfriendâ€™s mother has a dog, Scooby and a cat named Whiskers. No other pets though, except for a few mice running around. Well bye for now, I hope the things I have said are helpful to you. Love, Peace and Joy to you all.
Your Friend Robin Lee Johnson.