A Mormon Liar’s Wild Ride: “Through His Eyes and Lies” by C. L. Jackson

eyes_lies_cover Through His Eyes and Lies is not an ex-Mormon novel or an anti-Mormon novel. It’s kind of a Mormon-adjacent novel. Though the majority of the book’s events take place in Provo, Utah and religion does play a role in the story that unfolds, Mormonism itself is more the setting than the central focus. The church is Middle-Earth, not the One Ring. For anyone hoping for a juicy attack on LDS values in a millennial coming-of-age format, you’re going to be disappointed. Otherwise, there’s plenty of meat on the bone here.

Though author C. L. Jackson does take a few subtle and less-than-subtle swipes at Mormon foibles here and there, the story itself is a character study of a pathological liar (who is also a borderline alcoholic) as he searches for love and a sense of purpose between Maryland and Utah. He bounces from one short-lived romance to the next and staggers from one liquor bottle to the next, never really having a good handle on what he wants or who he is—which should make this a painfully relatable struggle for many.

The narrator is well-drawn, managing to maintain a delicate balance between being sympathetic and being despicable. He’s flawed, and there were plenty of times he needed a good solid punch in the nose, but as the novel progresses, it becomes clearer that he’s a good-hearted person whose best qualities have been obscured by the loss of his identity. When he starts to find out who he is and who he wants to be, the urge to punch dissipates quickly.

My only real complaint about Through His Eyes and Lies is the abundance of sexual encounters. While each has significance to the progression of the story and the development of the characters, it’s astonishing how easily the narrator is able to entice women into what are often one-night stands. Perhaps I merely don’t possess his womanizing attitude (or his devastating good looks), but it begins to feel very unrealistic as he cuts through the inhibitions and the brainwashing with relative ease in order to sleep with a staggering number of women in, of all places, Provo.

The sex is still an essential part of the narrator’s experiences and growth, however. His character arc is agonizingly drawn out at some points, but this quality is the book’s most realistic representation of human nature—change takes time, and we tend learn at a speed that, to outside observers, is much too slow. If anything, this makes his progress in the end all the more rewarding and all the more satisfying.

Jackson also layers the text with a pervasive if understated sense of humor. All of the film references, for example (especially in the chapter titles), are a fun little treat to keep you perked up even when the hero is at his lowest points. And though the book appeals to a wider readership, those with experience in Mormonism should be able to deeply connect with the narrator’s quest for a new identity and a life of authenticity.

2 thoughts on “A Mormon Liar’s Wild Ride: “Through His Eyes and Lies” by C. L. Jackson

  1. Alex — Thanks for writing this good analysis of a fun book!

    I had about the same reaction to all of the sexual encounters — that part didn’t strike me as terribly realistic. Not only do all of these hot women go out of their way to find him and hit on him, but they also bend over backwards to help him (get into college, etc.). Even if he’s drop-dead gorgeous, I have a hard time believing this unless he’s also a celebrity or something.

    That said, for young straight guys who can identify with the main character, reading this book will probably make for a fun fantasy romp. 😀

  2. Alex- Very honest analysis of the book. I enjoyed your review and perspective. You understand the author pretty well. I also understand the complaint, but I think anything the narrator describes should be taken with a huge grain of salt. After all, he is a drunk and a liar. I don’t believe all of the encounters were as easy or attractive as the character believed them to be.
    As the title suggest, all of his interactions are recounted from his point of view, but he is fortunate enough to be informed by other characters that not everything unfolded the way he thought they did. He gets details wrong from his most cherished/haunting memories.

    Also, glad you recognized the films referenced in the chapter titles.

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